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God where are you?

Dec 08

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Perhaps you found yourself in the throes of sadness. The lion’s roaring but it’s a silent internal roar.
I encourage you to not give up. The last few days I have been facing mental exhaustion.

I just feel so unmotivated. I look at all the piles of stuff I have to do, and would rather just crawl back into bed.
I don’t have patience to deal with impatient people and I need to (I do tech support).

I have taken simple courage in the fact that God is bigger than the world and the world of things. Even when I feel numb, and sad.

He will help me.

I had a good weekend with my wife, even though I barely had energy to do anything. We picked out a Christmas tree. That was nice.

But Monday rolled around and I felt just sort of like I was on autopilot. I scolded myself outloud for feeling so apathetic, and then realized thatpart of the problem was my self pressure to get everything done and when I don’t I feel like a I failed. Called my wife in hopes for some cheering up… but she was busy. And obviously holding two conversations at once.

God showed me it’s not anyone’s job to make me happy. Not even my spouse (who I might add is wonderful, I love you baby thanks for helping me and putting up with me).

My joy needs to come from Him alone. So I am asking Jesus, LORD Help me, and the others like me who feel beaten down by life!

Help us to be effective workers for your eternal blessing, to draw others to heaven.  Not matter if it feels like EVERYTHING is piled on so high you can’t reach the top…

By everything, I mean: fix computers, write the book I always hoped to, keep a journal, learn programming languages, save money, look for ways to show my wife I am in love with her, invent things to make extra money for Christmas, choose a good Charity to donate to… all a big mental check list that keeps going even at night when I try to sleep. I am sure you all have your own list of haunting things that plague you.

I realized. These things, are ruling me. We are taught that we should let nothing rule us besides Christ, and our love for Him and people. So rather than be motivated by the fact that I didn’t get everything I wanted to done, why not just say:

This one thing, I do for God’s glory. It might not finish all of the list. But it is a simple start from a heart that wants to plant good things. And then rest in Christ for a job well done on that particular thing.

I forget and start worrying about where the money will come from, how the project will get done, and I leave out that GOD IS BIGGER THAN ALL OF MY PROBLEMS.

God is bigger than exhaustion.

God is bigger than my fear of losing friends.

God is bigger than my ability to figure out frustrating computers.

God loves you and me more than we can fathom.

God is bigger than my heart aches.

God is bigger than lost jobs, or lost hope.

Jesus is Hope. Jesus is strength. And all we have to do is ask him for it, and he gives abundantly.

Lord Jesus help my readers, help my friends, and help me to surrender all things to you. Help us know that you love us, help us find your face in the dark and dreary days of existence, and help us find life, and life more abundantly in you. Amen.